Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Am I? Nope!

“Am I who you want to see yourself to be”?

This is a line from a song that I have been obsessed with for about two weeks, maybe longer. The song is really about a love not returned but that line just gets me every time. Am I who someone wants to see their self to be? Am I honorable? Am I what some would consider a “good Christian”? Am I worthy of being looked up to? Am I leading people in the right direction with my actions and words or am I leading people down the wrong path? Am I challenging the students in my life to get closer to God?

As you can tell this question has been punching me in the head for some time, and I think the answer is no. Not because I don’t try or anything like that, but I’m human. I’m not perfect. So no, I’m not always a “good Christian”, honorable, or worthy of being looked up to. But I do try. I try to live a life that is pleasing to God. And really, that’s all He asks of us. My imperfect example is a perfect example of Gods love for me, even when I’m not “good” (not that I’m ever very “bad” mind you).
I think being imperfect but having the desire to try to be perfect for God is enough. I think He accepts that, and I think that’s the best example I have to offer.
Any thoughts?


  1. I always wonder what a "good Christian" is... and if you ever get to that point, would that really be a "good" thing? Sorry this question is almost always on my mind and I think about it a lot and I could have written this blog myself (of course not in as good of wording as you used) because that's how much I think the exact same things...

  2. All i can say is this...
    18"Why do you call me good?" Jesus answered. "No one is good—except God alone. Mark 10:18
    I tend to think that i am a "good Christian" if i serve or up hold some sort of law i have designed for ourselves (ie keepingthe house clean for my hubby or reading x-amount in my bible) thing only thing that God askes of us is to "believe in the one He has sent" John 6:29 - Out of that,(believing in Jesus) god declares me rightous-completely different than good. at least that is kind of how i see it...
    i know long answer - but i get concerned about the thought of a 'good' christian b/c i want to be more about grace than law - obeying the law with out a converted heart will make a 2-fold son of hell.

  3. You are so right...all He asks is a willing heart and spirit. I see it in you!


  4. The song is "Just Impolite" by plushgun. Love it!!!