Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Say You Were Wrong

Long time no see! Miss me? Yes, mk. Moving on…

So, today the kids and I were rocking out to some music. A song came on that talks about forgiveness. Part of it goes “I am willing to forget. Are you willing to take ownership?” This line got me thinking about my life a bit.

I tend to be a bitter person. I hold grudges against people. But mostly, I hold them against my family. I tend to feel that there is a lot of things that happened that I deserve an apology for. Not that I don’t that things that I should apologize for, but still, I’m the kid. Well, at least that’s how I look at it. Anyway…

The song got me thinking that even if I never get an apology, I need to be more forgiving. None are served by a bitter heart. And as a friend likes to point out to me “bitterness is like drinking poison hoping the other person will die.” and let me assure you, that is not what I want to happen.

I have been praying harder to be more forgiving, but maybe that’s not enough on my part. Not to say that God isn’t changing my heart or anything, just that maybe I need to take more action in being forgiving. So, if you have read this little blog, please keep me accountable. I have a feeling I’m going to need the help…


  1. i can relate! love you louie(thats my new nick name for you)

  2. When I've been wronged, I ACT out the forgiveness BEFORE I FEEL IT. My feelings tend to follow my actions. If I wait until I feel like being kind or going out of my way to bless someone (particularly someone who has hurt me), let me tell you it can get to be an impressively long time.

    It also helps me to realize that the things I count as offenses were not intended that way. They were born out of selfishness on the other person's part, or ignorance, or pride, or self-preservation, or plain-old misinformed good intentions. I can honestly say that I can't think of any instance where it was obvious that someone set out to do me harm. Was there sin involved in the offense? Many times, yes, but the greater offense is against God who is holy and perfect and, to a far lesser degree, against selfish, ignorant, prideful, misinformed me.

    In extending just a fraction of the great grace extended to me by God toward the people whose words, actions and attitudes hurt me, I am getting myself out of God's way so that He may work His will in both of us. By actively praying for and seeking out ways to serve and bless those people, I act my way out of feeling entitled to restitution and remain aware of my own need for love, forgiveness and the kind actions of others, especially when I don't deserve it.

    Bless you, sweet girl!

  3. hey lulu... i know this is an older post but how is it working out for you? do you feel like you've been able to make headway with the fam.? God bless!