Vices

There are two particular doctrines that I have grown up with.

1. If your sad, buy new clothes. New clothes always make you feel better.

2. If your sad, take two shots and it will all be better in the morning.

Thanks family.

I found myself (almost) completely vice-less yesterday. I started fasting, with most of my church, this month but giving up meat and dairy didn't seem like enough, it felt like I needed to do more. So, I gave up shopping for the entire month of January and all forms of alcohol for the year. It just felt like it was what God wanted me to do and, don't get me wrong, I wouldn't take it back. But I now find myself with little to take comfort in other then God. He has made Himself harder to ignore and if you know me at all ignoring God til it hurts is one of my favorite pastimes.

So giving up the things that give me comfort is forcing me to hear God more and more. I think the reason I'm writing this is because hearing is one of the hardest thing's for me and I'm a little scared. I'm just a little scared.